Stripped

In a relationship, I believe there will come a time when you just have to put everything on the table. Yesterday was that day for me and Kei. I risked the relationship and told her stuff she should know first hand. It was a start (I can hear Kei saying, "what? THERE'S MORE???") and right now, after all that has been said in my part, I can't help but wonder if what I did was right.

I actually acquired a massive headache while telling her who, what, and why NIO is. It's really hard to bring back to life stuff you've already forgotten and forgiven yourself for doing in the past (and struggling to let go of in the present). But it was worth it. I should've done this when we weren't in a relationship yet. Actually, ideally, if it weren't for some unexpected turn of events in the past, we wouldn't be in a relationship right now. If you knew what happened, you'd understand why things suddenly transpired. Stuff that I thought weren't that obvious turned out to be THAT obvious after all. Suddenly, I started having regrets about that part of the past, but eventually, I realized, yet again, that all things work together for good to them that love God. And it turned out really good partly for me, but mostly for her.

So, here I am... a somehow opened book, walang plastic cover, hindi hard bound, and probably not a best seller either. But I allowed her to read me, or at least, skim through my pages. No secrets remains a secret forever anyway. But I'm taking a step forward for her to realize what she has gotten herself into or allowed herself to be a part of, and maybe, just probably, she'd learn something from it (my life). Somehow, it's partly the make or break of the relationship. I wouldn't want her to suddenly know and realize those stuff when we're already deep in it anyway.

She left somehow alright, but I really don't know what going on in her mind. There was one time she got mad while I was talking, and somehow, that troubled me, but only for an instant. Now, time will either be a friend or a foe. But whatever time brings, I just pray that it's going to be what's best for both of us. And when that day comes, I just hope we'd both be prepared for both the good and the bad.

Besides... we are both the son and daughter of the King, and I know God always has our best interest in mind.

"And we know that all things work together for good... to them that Love God, to them who are called according to His purposes" Romans 8:28

TO GOD BE THE GLORY!