Letting Go...

Perhaps people are getting weirded out by my beard. I haven't been shaving for almost a month since last two days ago when I had it trimmed to a ala-John Legend look. I had my reasons. It was a reminder. But two days ago, I decided not to be reminded anymore, and move on.

I guess I'm weird that way... actually, I know a couple of people who are like that. They wanted to be reminded of the pain. They want to feel it, bask in it, marinate in it... The bad thing about being marinated in pain or anything bad is... it will never leave you. It seeps in to your system until it runs you. You oust people out of your life, making excuses for being an absentee, and to make matters worst, you surround yourself with the wrong kind of people.

Wrong kind of people. I'm not talking about worldly people, I'm talking about people who'd be overly emphatic about what your going through. People who'd question their being because of what's happening to you. You'd isolate yourself from people who really care for you because you're afraid of what they'd say, about hearing what you fear you'd hear. You'd isolate yourself from people who KNOW you.

I was like that. When I was smoking, I'd be with people who I know smoke or used to smoke in our church or in the office, and we'd justify why we do it. We know it's wrong, yet we make excuses for doing it. Or, I'd go to that person who I know will just listen and then say "poor you" or "I understand what you're going through" but wouldn't really say anything to help me or "correct" me.

I almost reverted to going back to that; to being stubborn, but I didn't. The great thing about having a super-natural God is that even though you are head deep in "marinating sauce" for years is that even though the taste and smell of it has already pemeated your whole being, it's just a snap for Him to remove. All it takes is a great amount of humility, acceptance, and ownership of that stupid thing you did, and just let go of it, and leave it all to God, without justifying and making excuses for doing it.

Perhaps you are like that, let me just encourage you to STOP BEING STUBBORN! Stop alienating your Christian friends, God uses them to talk to us. Stop making excuses and justifying whatever it is that is holding you back from doing great things for our GREAT GOD, you're just limiting yourself to doing NOTHING. I don't know about you, but doing nothing for me equals disobedience and therefore equals SIN! STOP BEING STUBBORN!!!

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding...

Read that? LEAN NOT ON OUR OWN UNDERSTANDING!