Tuesday, October 16, 2007

The ONE who Can't Love...

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I'm in a crisis... a crisis where-in my plans were foiled, and there is nothing I can do but to just face the music, and deal with it in a sensible, mature, and Christianly way.

Considering someone to be your LIFETIME partner is, well, a pretty BIG step to do. I'm not the type to go from one relationship to the other, or trying the waters first to see and answer the what ifs in the long-run.

When it comes to relationships, I don't want to have a strike one, two, or three, and then realize, "Hey, this ain't for me, so might as well either be a PLAYAH or live a live of complete and utter... GULP... celibacy(NOOOOOOOO!!!)."

Well, since my plans were foiled, that IT'S already out there, I might as well tell her what my plans were, lest is passes from one mouth to the other and ends up being gossip. The good thing, though, is that she is mature enough to understand where I'm at, and I feel I'm sensitive enough to understand where she is at the moment. We both need to face certain things in our lives, and that's just between the two of us and our Maker(and our counselors).

Yeah, it's no secret anymore... the relationship challenged DUDE is giving up his arrogance about relationship(Christian relationship, might I add). He is finally looking into the possibility of a certain someone not to complete him, but for other heavenly reasons. He's finally opening up his heart to someone, AND IT'S SCARING THE HELL OUT OF HIM!!! But, people are praying for him and her, and they both know that in the end, what matters is what God intended for the both of them.

HE says, I need to be sure...

SHE says, I need to be healed...

THEY say, we need GOD above anything else.

Amen...

AMEN!!!

8 comments:

  1. "THEY say, we need GOD above anything else."
    -amen indeed ;)

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  2. done that....after giving up everything to the Lord...He Himself will give us something beyond our comprehension and understanding....my love story was made by Him and not me....the miracle came when i stopped looking, when i gave up my heart to the Lord....

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  3. Amen! We just have to surrender everything to HIM. He knows best. Let's have faith that God has great and mighty things in store for all of us, in all areas of our lives. God bless! :)

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  4. Thanks, y'all!

    There is a certain disappointment in me because it was never really my plan to open up to her about my feelings, but since there has been insinuations and people are PRAYING for us without OUR knowledge... I felt it's unfair for her and me that may nauuna na pala sa aming mag-pray maliban sa pag-pray namin ang isa't isa. Lalo na sa kanya na walang ka-alam alam about my feelings.

    There is "an act of God", pero there still is the "permissive will" that might have been not a good idea... Blowing confidences is NEVER good in my book.

    KEEP PRAYING FOR US!!! :)

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  5. actually Nio, there are so many people who had done this to me...praying for me and the person i like...i ended up hurting...the last man that i met who became my buddy buddy (this is before i met Lance)....i thought he likes me, he comes in our church once in awhile (he is also a christian), he makes friends with all of my friends in church and even in my apartment...my friends started praying for him and me....after a year of friendship (i thought he was my God's Best)....he called me if he can date my single neighbor...it was a big blow to my heart....i was totally broken....and that made me decided not to date anyone and isolate my self with my friends...and what left in me? is the Lord...i totally searched His will and He said just stay there and relax...enjoy my company. After a year of heart-broken, there the Lord use one of my long lost friend...one call and the rest is history...the Lord send forth the man He had prepared for me....I did not search that time, I did not entertain that time...all i did is wait...

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  6. Thanks for sharing, Te Marie. I think God giving us the desires of our hearts depends on our obedience to His bidding and calling. Stubbornness and arrogance can only lead us to deeper problems and it makes going back to God a lot harder.

    Been there... done that!!! :)

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